I’ve been quiet about the earthquake in Sichuan. In part because it’s been extremely exhausting to watch what is coming out, and in part that I’ve found that it’s a good idea to be relatively quiet when people are undergoing a lot of emotional trauma. When people are in a great deal of pain, they can lash out very angrily if you happen to say the wrong thing, so I’ve found it is best to just keep quiet and listen. Even listening to someone in pain can be extremely difficult and exhausting.
I do have a lot of thoughts on what is going on, but I don’t think it would be particularly useful for me to share them right now. Maybe in a few months. Part of it is that I’m just a bit too tired right now to get into a political argument. Maybe later.
Part of the difficulty in seeing someone in a great deal of pain is that it reminds me a bit more that I’d like about things in my own past. One truism about extreme trauma is that you never really recover from it. You just cope and manage to get through the day. One day follows then next, and then years pass, and you are wounded but functioning a bit better, and then something bad happens to someone else, and you are reminded of things that you’d rather not be reminded about.
It never goes away.